VCC wrote:i don't think there is a cure it is about working hard to find the triggers that spiral you down further and further and networking around those triggers so you can recognise and seek what works for yourself to stay well that is my experience of it ..................................................................it effects 1 in 5 people here huge statistic
I read UFGN post the other day and put off my reply as I knew it would be long. But your post hits the point for me.
I've had it a lot since my daughter was born 15 years ago. A few times really bad. What confuses me is why I haven't had it the last few years after everything I've been through. And not even the last few years, the last 4 months. From having a gorgeous baby girl 2 years ago, I went to cancer for a year and then losing 6 family and friends this year. 2 funerals in a week...only because I couldn't face the 3rd in a week.
And yet I still feel like I'm waiting for it to hit me..feel like I have done before.
This is the depression thread...what I really feel like is I'm waiting for something to go wrong, for me to lose someone even closer than I already have. I keep having bad feelings like something is going to happen.
I don't know, probably because all I seem to see is death.
This is what I mean about UFGN post and the help. My doctor refered me to a Councillor as they don't understand why my blood pressure is high for my age. Tests so far have come back fine. Anyway I had the interview on the phone, my God they go through everything! But it helped. I got so much off my chest about how I felt, things that had happened, even things from when i was younger that affected me now. I felt such a relief when I came off the phone and was looking forward to talking to someone about it all.
You know what they suggested when they rang back a few weeks later? Firstly talking in a group about worrying too much....my reply was I don't want to talk to a bunch of strangers about my cancer and how everyone I know who has had it, has got it back and died! Which is something I've never told anyone but her on the phone and now you lot lol. But that was only a part of what I said in the interview.
So her next suggestion was....read this leaflet we send out.
For me to speak to someone she said I would be looking at 3 months at least waiting time, which I said fine, I wanted to.
But I know why I couldn't get seen sooner. It was because I'm no threat. They ask certain questions. And because I made it clear I love my kids, family and don't want to hurt myself or anyone. I ain't important.
Sorry, I said it would be a long post and after re-reading...yeah a bit personal too.
Edit: You know what, maybe if they actually deal with it earlier, there would be less people feeling suicidal and dealing with stronger bouts of depression.
(not talking about me btw
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