I can't even remember what I've posted in this thread over the time, but I have been reading it.
UFGN would you call a kid selfish for not understanding why her dad hung himself?
There are so many good posts in here for either way of it.
I understand the depression, wondering every day if your family would be better off without you.
My medical notes are full of it. There is one thing that stopped it all for me.About 6 years ago I was stood at a main road/roundabout for ages and kept thinking if I walked, my pain and thoughts I was having would all be over. .
I really wanted to and never in my life have I felt like that since. The thought of my kids hating me pulled me back.
I know not everyones state of mind is like that though.
I say people who do are selfish, but the mind is a very powerful thing.